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Strategy of a "Mad" Man

I've been spending a lot of time deciding exactly what direction I wanted to take this blog in since my last entry. One of the issues with my personal brand of anxiety is that I need to have some sort of structure laid out in order to stay on course with any particular long term task.  That being said, this is a project of self improvement, and this blog should therefore be used as a means for holding myself accountable for change.  There can be no more excuses or delays in kicking things off, so let's start by examining the current state of things. I don't know exactly how other people classify "rock bottom". It's one of those completely subjective terms that can't be assigned a measurable value, but we hear about people reaching that particular state of being constantly. Let's just jump to the point and say that I hope that I've reached rock bottom.  That's such a strange thing to say, but it couldn't be more true for a person who cons...
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Call it a Comeback

Sometimes you have to start a thing more than once for it to stick. So, consider this round 2. Life got the better of me over the last year, but I need this blog. I need something to keep me focused and centered. I'm not giving up, and I'm not letting myself get buried in my own negativity or insecurity.  I know I need to make changes to survive, so consider me back. Consider this a refresh that has nothing to do with New Year's resolutions or empty promises. I'm going to do this, and I hope I can help make a difference for someone else along the way.  Let's get it done! Edit - Since I wrote the first part of this on my phone while waiting to get a few burgers from Five Guys this afternoon, I've decided to add a little bit more here now that I've had time to think. After going back and re-reading the first blog entry that launched this blog, I've realized just how important it is that I follow through with my original plan. Things have certainl...
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Falling off the Wagon

It's a bit early for me to be neglecting this blog already, but I felt the old procrastination bug chewing on my brain this past week. I must be vigilant! At any rate, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. The only direction we can go is forward no matter how well we stick to our plans, right?  With that in mind, I feel like it's a good time to offer a few good explanations of just why I'm trying to kick nasty old anxiety's strangle hold on me to the curb.  Anxiety is one of those things that is easy to discount at a glance. Every living person has some level of anxiety going on in his or her life, but for many of us it becomes such a huge influence over our every day comings and goings that it seems impossible to surmount. It's one of the reasons why so many people just "put up" with their suffering. After all, we know that everyone has troubles. Therefore, why should we bother anyone with our issues? Why is our pain and suffering any more import...
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Looking for "Normal" - An Introduction

I’ve been putting off starting this blog for several months now, and I can only blame myself. I blame myself for letting my own anxiety control my decisions, or for allowing indecision in my life for as long as I can remember, but now is the time for change. It’s all well and good to admit that you have a problem, but what does it really mean if you don’t try to do anything to fix it? Are you really afflicted, or are you just hiding from your own responsibility?   Now, I’m not claiming that self-help is easy, nor am I claiming that everyone with anxiety and depression can better themselves without help. All that I aim to do with this blog is to connect with just a few of the thousands, perhaps millions, of people like me who struggle with considerable anxiety on a day to day basis.   If I can accomplish that, then I may be on the way to better understanding my own fears and insecurities in some way.   Maybe if I can help myself, then perhaps I can somehow inspire ot...
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